Phoenix Rising

does anybody still read these?

2006-08-14T06:44:01Z

whelp, it's 2:14 in the mornin and i'm bored. i haven't update this thing in a good ol' while cause i honestly just haven't felt the need to and plus, i don't think anybody really reads these anymore. myspace has taken over. it's all good though. just got done sketchin out some figure lines that i'm gonna try to complete after i get some rest and my mind refreshed. i saw brian matyas tonight which was really cewel. i haven't seen him in what seems like forever.. like a year and a half i think. well anyway, he brought some of his art with him and it was fuckin awesome. i was jokin around saying that i was never gonna draw again because his stuff was really good but honestly, it just kinda fueled the fire that has just been simmering as of late. it inspired me to one up him and make some kickass stuff myself. it's kindof an unspoken friendly rivalry that has always gone on between us artist... somebody lays something down kickass, it's up to you to one up them. it's a very respectful thing because we all love each other and want to see the next person succeed and all that good stuff. laura's was down here at brandi's the other night and she took a hell of alot of photos of me, brandi, matt, chris and her boyfriend kyle. it's was cewel cause she's an awesome photographer and i know she did us justice. when we were over there tonight, she was developin them in her bathroom but i didn't get to see any of them. before matyas, chad and chris came over, laura, kyle, brandi and i, all went to walmart cause laura needed some things. it was kinda fun i guess. me and brandi don't really hang around alot of couples and it was just kinda cewel i guess to all be in the same boat. nothin against our single friends or anything. i'll love it when they have a significant other as well. laura brought up the whole "what are you gonna do with your life" question to me... honestly, i'm tired of hearin it. i know she only had concern when she asked but it's not like i need remindin, you know? alot of people have brought that up to me lately and it kinda scares me that i don't know what i wanna do for the rest of my life and i just don't want it brought up anymore. be concerned and look out for my well-being. that love and support will be much appreciated, but just don't ask that question anymore. it's all good though. right now, i'm tryin to get a job with matt doin landscaping. that all depends on if they get more work. they get more work, i get hired... they don't, i don't. but i will be pretty busy coming up cause my parents and my brother are moving and i'll be helpin them with moving and building up stuff on the land. it'll be good to actually do something instead of be bored most of the day. aight, i'm rambling now. til next time.

stupid fuckin people

2006-06-21T18:57:29Z

it's been awhile since i've updated but i'm sittin here bored with absolutely nothin to do and nobody to talk to and i need to vent. so i've been down here in rockhill for awhile with brandi... everybody who reads this probably knows that already. well she got a roommate a couple of weeks ago. at first i tried to be nice when i got asked how she was.. well not anymore. the girl is FUCKING stupid! she's not a few french fries short of a happy meal, she's missin all the fries and like half the burger. hell, probably the only thing in there is that piece of shit toy that gets kids all excited about. she talks and talks and talks, but doesn't listen to anything anyone else says. all she's talked about is her boyfriend and how much she hated being in belgum last year. newsflash... i don't care. i didn't ask about either... but i was being nice, you know? i can be civil and plus this was brandi's roommate. i don't want problems between them. but goddamn this girl is dumb. her boyfriend pretty much stays over here so i don't need her givin me a play by play of his life. A) i don't care and B) i have 2 eyes of my own... i can see when he's there or when he's not. she felt the need monday night when we got there, to get outta bed, inform us that he wasn't gettin off until 3 and then go back to bed. WHO CARES!?!? the dude seems ok but i don't give a shit and i pretty sure brandi doesn't either. and don't get me started on the kitchen. the girl is just not clean. it was clean before she moved in and now it's not. she used all of brandi's expensive clorox wipes to wipe up something a little water and a paper towel could have cleaned. she used up all of the dishwasher soap things and doesn't look like she gonna get anymore cause she left all her dishs in the sink over the weekend we weren't here and and all the dirty ones in the dishwasher. there is some liquid soap down there that was actually mine that i gave to brandi but i guess she's too stupid to realize what that was. she used brandi's wax paper(which is used to go under pastries and things like that so it won't stick)to cover a blue berry pie that she left sittin out when there was plastic wrap right next to it and would have been the obvious choice for anyone who has a brain. i went out there this mornin and the sink is full of dishes that are brandi's but she didn't use them. my thing is, if you're gonna use someone else's dishes to cook or eat off of, that's fine, just clean them and put them away when you are done. the shit better be clean by the time i get ready to fix mine and brandi's supper.and finally to top it off, i opened up the microwave to heat my lunch and there sat the blueberry pie. but yeah... the pie is in a fuckin aluminum pie pan and it's in the microwave! did she heat it up in there? has anyone caught on to what i'm sayin here? she doesn't lock the door when she comes in or leaves... it was midnight and i go out there and the doors unlocked. somebody needs to just put this poor bitch outta her misery. oh yeah and one of my movies is missin. i left a note on the tv out there(my tv) sayin that i didn't care if my moives where watched, they just needed to be put back where they came from when you were finished. we'll see where that goes from there. i ain't playin with that shit.

apparently i'm a rockstar...

2006-04-27T06:47:23Z

it's been some time. i find that i'm unmotivated about updatin this thing as much as some should who takes the time to have one. actually it does seem that MYSPACE has pretty much killed this site and other ones like it. anyway... notta lot goin on. went to a party at my sister's last weekend and had a pretty good time. made a few people never question me when i say "lets go cause the cops are about to show up". i just have a knack for these things. it was fun regardless.
this saturday coming up is brandi's formal. it's a Delta Omicron(her sorority or fraternity... whatever they say it is) and Phi Mu Alpha(the gay one i almost joined) joint event. so while there will be a few people there that i will not care to see *cough* john welch *cough* it's all good. i have the hottest date ever. i'm actually excited because like an idiot, i never went to the prom highschool. neither junior nor senior... it sucks cause lookin back, i would have loved to have gone. junior year... whatever, but my senior one... i really hate that i didn't go. but i knew i couldn't take taylor(who i was datin at the time) and then we broke up and a few other girls that i was interested in already had dates. after the prom was done and over with, girls came outta the wood work sayin that if i had just asked... whatever. i should have gone by myself... but i wanted a date. anyway.. i think this will put some closure on the whole prom thing. this will be more sophisticated and i will share it with the women i love. should be alot of fun.

brandi actually told me something that made me laugh the other day. this dude she knows came up and asked her if she "was still with that army dude". she told him no, that had been over for awhile and the guy was like "oh yeah... your with that ROCKSTAR now"... so apparently i'm a rockstar. i mean, i knew that i was and all, but it was just unexpected is all... funny, but un expected.

if you know me, you know i'm not a big fan of the anime shit you see on tv. actually i'm not a big fan of hardly any of it in any media. i don't think it should be allowed at any of the comic book conventions cause they have gay little anime conventions for just that reason. stupid ass Yu-Gi-Oh and Pokemon, Inyuhasha and Dragon ball Z(that shit just got old)... it's all just stupid and gay and there are plenty more that i just don't know the goddamn name to... like that Bobo-bobobo-bobobobobo shit.. yes, there really is a show that's name is something like that. but i don't hate it all. there are a few that i actually like... Cowboy Bebop and Trigun(in small doses)... i just like the way they are done. now i'm not sayin that there aren't any more good ones but that's all i've seen until now. i've stumbled across this show on Adult Swim the other night and it was neat. just theway it was done. i was kinda shocked to find out it was that Samuria Champloo show. yeah, the names pretty stupid(i thought it was called Samuria Shampoo for the longest time)but it's pretty good. tonight's episode actually had to do with Vincent van Gogh's inspiration to paint sunflowers all the time. very rarely do you see that in cartoons, especially an anime one. like i said, pretty neat and you should watch it sometime when you get the chance.

so yeah, i think i might go draw some now or go to bed... who knows?

boored...

2006-04-04T04:48:01Z

i don't remember being this bored in a long time. i have absolutely nothing to do. myspace doesn't really keep me entertained anymore. brandi was right, most people have neglected this for myspace. this past weekend was really fun. we all haven't done that in awhile and it was good to just stay out all night. of course, a few people were missin but there is plenty of time to get them around. i applied at 3 places on sunday for a job. hopefully i will at least hear from one of them. that's about it. this weekend, i'll be doin relay for life with brandi and then possbily face paintin for somethin else as well. that's about it. just wanted to update.

....

2006-03-12T08:40:34Z

you ever just feel like cryin but you don't know why? like you sit there while tears swell up in your eyes and you try to blame it on something or someone. "the computer screen is too bright", "seein that photo takes me back"... you can say that but you know in your heart that's not why. you don't know why... maybe it's your body tellin you to clean out your tear ducts. i don't know, but it's happenin right now. i have nothing to be sad about at the moment. i'm with the woman i love and i can look right over from where i'm at and she's right there. she's asleep, but she's right there. i love her so much. i know that i've said that before about a different persons. you can read back in these damn entrys and probably find that i used that word in every relationship i've had. you will probably find that i said that she's the one for me. the truth is... i didn't know shit. i wanted that but i didn't have it. now i have it and i will never let that go. i will cease to function if i was to ever lose it. i can't describe to you the feelin that you get when you feel that your heart is finally complete. i've felt that something was missin my whole life and searched to find it. that's why i was kinda selective with relationships(all 3 of them, not including the one i'm in now) before. it reminds me of the U2 song "i still haven't found what i'm looking for". thats good U2, not that new stuff. if you haven't heard the song, you should. my mom told me that when i was little, i would walk around, apparently for no reason, singin that song. as long as i can remember, that was my favorite song. not anymore... i don't need that song. i've found what i'm lookin for. i am complete. you can mark my words on this. so the tears are not for her. i miss my uncle and even as i type those words my eyes swell up even more and my lip begins to quiver a bit, but i know that the orignal tears were not meant for him. i worry about my grandma livin by her self but they aren't for her. i was just cleanin out my inbox on my deviant art page and stumbled across some disturbin news but the tears are not for him and the situation he's in. we may not see eye to eye, we may not even be friends but i do not wish him ill-will and i would never wish that he'd be seperated from the person he loves. like i said, that's sad but no tears for him. i was on myspace and i had a new friend request. i looked through her friends and saw an ex. i looked at her profile for a minute, just thinkin. but these tears are not in any way for her. i think what i'm worried about is that these tears might be for myself. i am under a ton of stress. i have no job, no money and multiple things to pay for, no real place to live, no liscense... i couldn't finacially support anyone if i needed to right now and that kills me. but i refuse to feel sorry for myself. i refuse to get down in the dumps about it. i lift my head up and soilder on. i'm scared that these tears are for me.... i'm scared that i am growin up too fast. in my life, if an opportunity is presented and i don't take it, it won't ever happen again. i talked to chad's dad lastnight about becomin a police officer. i've pondered on that thought for a good while now. we had a pretty lengthy conversation on it. i think that's what i want to do with my life. but i'm scared... plain and simple. i fear what i can not control and i feel that i can't control my life. on one hand, i need a job... not just a job, a career. something i can hold a family up on. helpin people in some shape, form or fashion is why i was put on this earth. i'm here to make a difference. i know i can do that by becomin a police officer. on the other hand though, i don't wanna grow up. i don't want this responsibility at all. i can't move out again, start a career, start a family and have it all cave in and run back home. i can't run back home ever again period. it scares me because it's already happened twice. i think a part of me feels that by not allowin myself to grow up, i don't have to worry about be such a giant failure later. but i know that's wrong. i can't sit back and do that. i can't give up... i wasn't raised as a quitter. i can't feel sorry for myself when there are others who are worse off than me. i try to look at what i have.... a super family that doesn't hear me say things like that enough, the best fuckin friends in the world(i truley mean that) and the woman of my dreams that has filled that empty void inside me. when i look at things like that, the tears dry up and the fear fades away. but it will always come back. i guess what i need to do is sit down with Dr. fear and Mr. resposibility and have a conversation with them. sit down and really decided which one i will let effect my life in the long run. if you know me, you already know what's gonna happen.

"and every last inch of me's covered in hair!"

2006-03-02T02:54:08Z

^ from "Beauty & The Beast"... Gaston's song in the tavern... funny stuff, i'll tell you what... anyway...
not much new on my end.
been spendin alot of time with brandi, which is good.
created a myspace account for some damn reason.
found abunch of people that i misplaced.
yep, i misplaced them.
been doin alot of art lately.
weekly or semi-weekly art jams with chaddy over at deviantart.
chris and i have takin our comic project to the next step.
more story developments as well as character designs are being made and chad's jumped in on it.
pretty cewel if i do say so myself.
well... i got nothin else to say.
werd.

hades-adolesent male and poison

2006-02-15T22:27:39Z

ok... so chaddy and i are doin this thing on our deviant art pages. we are taken 2 characters a week and drawin them in our own style and postin them up. this week we chose, as you can see below, Hellboy and Venom; 2 great characters... 4 awesome pictures. due next week are Hawkeye(from the Avengers) and Storm(from the X-Men). enjoy.

random stuff...

2006-02-10T04:15:09Z

WORDS...

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. what does it say? "Chester came into the house several years ago as a birthday gift for Mr. Monroe, along with two volumes of G.K. Chesterton(hence the name, Chester
and a first edition of Dickens' A Tale of Two Cities." - Bunnicula

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. what's the closest thing to your hand? the 'mote control

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? Dallas Swat(it's on now... not really watchin it though)

4. Without looking, guess what time it is: just about 11

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 10:55

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? the TV and everybody in my house coffing(sp?) cause they are sick. i better not get it.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? just a minute ago; i was takin a piss cause my mom was in the bathroom

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at? i was on my deviant art page

9. What are you wearing? blue sweat pants, orange "Dukes of Hazzard" shirt and my gray hoodie

10. Did you dream last night? i think so

11. When did you last laugh? umm earlier

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? green pant

13. Seen anything weird lately? yeah... i just read this convo on this website, http://www.perverted-justice.com/?archive=hugedickfouryou . it's basically a website designed to catch online predators. that conversation i read was really disturbing

14. What do you think of this quiz? it's kinda gay

15. What is the last film you saw? Tristan & Isolde... not a bad movie

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? the question is, what wouldn't i buy?

17. Tell something about yourself that most people don't know: i would one day, in the future, like to have ninja assasins take my arm(s)in a fight to the death. i would not die in this fight and i would come back with killer robotic arms and destroy the ninjas that took my arms. seriously.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? i'd make things an eye for an eye

19. Do you like to dance? yep

20. George Bush: what about him? he's nothing special

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? daughter? i mean that's what you call a girl who is your child don't you?

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? um.. the same would apply here except i'd call him son

23. Would you ever consider living abroad? possibly

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? i don't know what i'd want him to say, but i have a feelin what he might say... "what the hell are you doin here?"... something to that effect... you know God, always sayin something catchy

MUSIC...

check this out... in case you missed is lastnight... http://youtube.com/w/JayZ-%2CLinkin-Park%2C-PaulMcCartney.-Sing-%22ENCORE%22%40-Grammy%27s-06?v=Id6XMTxqHiw&search=2006%20grammys

ART...

i call this "Pantheon"

stole this from Mr. Mangum

2006-02-08T04:41:18Z

Can you name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people. Ready, Start!

1. Brandi
2. Chad
3. Matt
4. Chris
5. Josh
6. Sarah
7. Laura
8. Matt M.
9. Bobbo
10. Paige
11. Marianna
12. Arielle
13. Jeremiah
14. Mckenzie
15. Matyas
16. Brianne
17. Ben
18. Stacy
19. Lydia
20. Carrie
21. Megan

1. How did you meet 14? (Mckenzie) i met her in spanish class my senior year; i became friends with her when the summer her and Matt started dating

2. What would you do if you never met 6? (Sarah) she taught me that it's ok to be friends and not agree on everything

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? (Carrie and Bobbo) umm i wouldn't do anything. i don't think they fit each other but who knows?

4. Did you ever like 5? (Josh) yeah but goddamnit, i had to be straight!

5. Would 4 and 12 make a good couple? (Chris and Arielle)umm... no... i.. no

6. Describe 8: (Matt M.) he's quite special... like not in my heart special, but in the head special...
jokiiinnnng

7. Do you think 13 is attractive? (Jeremiah) well yeah... i mean he's gotta be, he's my little brother

8. Tell me something humiliating about 17: (Ben) umm i don't really know... he humped penny like 2 new year's eve's ago? i mean, that's pretty humiliating, right? but in his defense, he was DRUUUNK

9. Do you know any of 4's family members? (Chris) yep. Chaddy's my secret lover and their parents are the shizznit

10. What's 21's favorite color? (Megan) probably pink but i don't know

11. What would you do if 18 just confessed they liked you? (Stacy) i would say "well thank you, that's nice and all, but no"

12. What language does 20 speak? (Carrie) Vermont-ese

13. Who is 9 going out with? (Bobbo) i don't know...

14. What grade is 16 in? (Brianne) sophmore in college

15. When's the last time you talked to 13? (Jeremiah) the other day when i called home

16. What is 2's favorite band? (Chad) umm.. A.P.C.?

17. Would you ever date 7? (Laura) nope. i love laura to death, but no

18. Would you ever date 12? (Arielle) eww gross... that's my sister

19. Is 15 single? (Matyas) i don't have a clue cause he didn't bother to contact anybody when he was down here for christmas break

20. What is 19's last name? (Lydia) i really don't know... she's one of brandi's friends from home and i just put her down cause i was runnin out of people

21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 2? (Chad) ever want? what if we already are?

22. What school does 11 go to? (Marianna) i don't know if she's there yet but she is goin to attend Appilacin college

23. Where does 3 live? (Matt) Charlotte

24. What's your favorite thing about 10? (paige) i can almost always count on her to be online... and she's matt's sister

25. Have you seen number 1 naked? (Brandi) i'm reallY not at libErty to Say! hehe

luk3duk3 @ 2006-01-31T11:46:00

2006-01-31T17:00:06Z

A - AVAILABLE?: most of the time
B - BEST FRIENDS: Matt and Chaddy
C - CRUSH: i don't have one... i don't consider Brandi my crush because we are past the crush stage and into the relationship
D- DADS NAME: Kenneth
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Brandi, Matt and Chaddy
F - FAVORITE BAND? i love tons of music but i'd have to say Linkin Park
G - GUMMY BEARS OR WORMS: i don't really like either one
H - HOMETOWN: Charlotte, NC
I - INSTRUMENT: uh my whole body... depends how i use it i guess
K - KIDS: none right now... but later on
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: uh either to Florida or Pennsylvania
M - MILK FLAVOR? i would say chocolate... even though i really don't drink milk
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2
O - ONE WISH: for my future kids to have a wonderful life
P - PHOBIAS: i don't have phobias... i don't like water but it's not a phobia
Q - FAVORITE QUOTE: "...and knowing is what? half the battle!"
R - REASON TO SMILE: Brandi
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: "lights and sounds"- yellow card... it was on tv
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: about 11
U - UNKNOWN FACTS ABOUT ME:
V - VEGETABLE YOU HATE:
W- WORST HABITS: i don't know...
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: i acutually don't think i've ever had one... i can't remember
Y - YUMMY FOOD: chicken... all kinds
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Libra

BORED... oh.. 109 movies

2006-01-26T04:18:41Z

Supposedly if you've seen over 70, you have no life. Number the ones you've seen. Put your score in header and repost.

(1) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(2) Grease
(3) Pirates of the Caribbean
(4) Boondock Saints
( ) The Mexican
(5) Fight Club
(6) Starsky and Hutch
(7) Neverending Story
(8) Blazing Saddles
(9) Airplane
( ) Grease 2

(10) The Princess Bride
(11) Young Frankenstien
(12) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgundy
(13) Napoleon Dynamite
(14) Saw
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(15) Anger Management
(16) 50 First Dates
(17 ) Jason X

(18) Scream
(19) Scream 2
(20) Scream 3
(21) Scary Movie
(22) Scary Movie 2
(23) Scary Movie 3
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
(24) American Wedding
(25) Harry Potter 1
(26) Harry Potter 2
(27)Harry Potter 3
(28)Harry Potter 4

(29) Resident Evil I
(30) Resident Evil 2
(31) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(32) The Village
( ) Donnie Darko
(33) Lilo & Stitch

(34) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(35) 13 Ghosts
(36) Signs
(37) The Grinch
(38 ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
(39) Butterfly Effect
(40) Thirteen Going on 30
(41) I, Robot

(42) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(43) Universal Soldier
( ) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(44) Along Came Polly
(45) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
( ) Meet The Parents
(46) Meet the Fockers
(47) Eight Crazy Nights

( ) Cinderella Story
( ) the Terminal
( ) the Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(48) Dumb & Dumber
(49) Dumb & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Halloween
(50) The Ring

( ) The Ring 2
(51) Harold & Kumar Go To Whitecastle
(52) Practical magic
( ) Chicago
(53) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(54) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards

(55) The Day After Tomorrow
() Child's Play
() Bride of Chucky
(56) Ten Things I Hate About You
(57) Just Married
(58) Gothika
() Nightmare on Elm Street
(59) Sixteen Candles
( ) Coach Carter
(60) Bad Boys

(61) Bad Boys 2
(62 ) Joy Ride
( ) Se7en
( ) Oceans eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
(63) Bourne Identity
( ) Lone Star
(64) Bedazzled
(65) Predator I
(66) Predator II

(67) Independence Day
(68) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(69) Christine
(70) ET
(71) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' daughter.
(72) Frailty

( ) Best Bet
(73) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(74) She's All That
( ) Calendar girls
( ) Sideways
(75) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(76) Ever After
(77) Forrest Gump
(78) Big Trouble in Little China

(79) X-Men
(80) X-2
(81) Jeepers Creepers
(82) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(83) The Others
( ) Freaky Friday
(84) Reign of Fire
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) The Hot Chick

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
(85) Old School
(86) The Notebook
(87) K-Pax
(88) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(89) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(90) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
( ) A Walk to Remember
(91) Boogeyman

( ) Hitch
(92) The Fifth Element
(93) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(94) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(95) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(96) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(97) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(98) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi...
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks

(99) Air Force One
(100) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
(101) People Under the Stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(102) Sound of Music
(103) Parent Trap 1 (old)
(104) Parent Trap 2 (new)
( ) The Burbs
(105) The Terminator

() Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
( ) Meet Joe Black
(106) Nightmare Before Christmas
(107) The Silence of the Lambs
(108) Red Dragon
(109) Sleepy Hollow
( ) I Heart Huckabees
( ) 24 Hour Party People
( ) Blood In Blood Out
( ) The Virgin Suicides

yep.. i'm bored...

2006-01-25T17:30:54Z

I 2005 I.........

( ) stayed single
( ) got my first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
( ) had sex for the first time
( ) had sex
( ) how many times?
( ) made-out for the first time
(x) made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) kissed in the rain
(X) fell in love
( ) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else's heart
(x) had a stalker
(x) had a good relationship with someone
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) got pregnant
( ) got someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) got engaged
( ) got married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
( ) kissed someone of the same sex
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under mistletoe

WORK/SCHOOL

(x) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
( ) got a job
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
(x) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
(x) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's..]
( ) met one teacher you really like
( ) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
( ) cut class
( ) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(x) proved yourself an idiot
( ) embarrassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget

OTHER

(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran/walked a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) went to a concert
( ) learned to play a new instrument
(x) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
(x) went to camp
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants--not literally
(x) flirted shamelessly
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) visited a foreign state
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
( ) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
(x) dyed your hair
(x) came close to losing your life
(x) someone close to you died
(x) went to a party
(x) drank alcohol
( ) drank alcohol underage
( ) got high
( ) got drunk
( ) got arrested
( ) ran from cops
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
( ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(x) saw your favorite band/artist live
(x) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone

and there you have it... that was fuckin boring

bored...

2006-01-22T07:32:59Z

i'm over at brandi's and she just fell asleep and i was readin journals and i found this in sarah's journal. it's long but i'm bored...

Name: Luke Duke

Siblings: Arielle and Jeremiah
Education: NWSA 2003 & the school of life
Favorite place: probably here at brandi's
Favorite Pop: umm... i don't drink pop. it's called soda and my choice would be Mt. Dew
Favorite food: i'm fat so it would almost be easier to name what wasn't my favorite... but i love chicken just about every way it can be cooked
Favorite book: The Watchers by dean koontz and my monthly comic books which my favorite would probably have to be Astonishing X-men written by joss whendon and draw by john cassidy
Favorite animal: wolves, birds of prey, lions
Water brand: the brand the city supplies you right outta the tap
Favorite burger place: jack in the box or wendy's cause they're cheap
Favorite hobby: being fat... yeah, that's pretty much it
Favorite friends: well my best friends would be matt and chad but i love all my friends very dearly
Favorite vitamins: i don't take vitamins
Favorite dog: a husky or a malamute(sp?) or a french bull terrier
Favorite sport to watch: football
Favorite fruit: apples
Favorite song: right now- the cat and sweater song by keith urban. i don't really like him that much and i don't know the name of the song but i just think it's funny how he tells her to take her cat and leave his sweater... just funny to me
Favorite milkshake: vanilla
Steak or lobster: i'd actually rather have crab or chicken
Favorite color: green, black
Favorite weather: fall weather
Favorite state: has to be NC

Do you...

Have a crush on someone: not really... i mean i could say brandi but it's beyond a crush
Wish you could live somewhere else? yep... i'm ready to get back into my own place again
Believe in online dating: whatever floats your boat but i'd never do it
Want more piercings: nah not really... i'd rather have more tattoos
Like cleaning: no not really but sometimes it just has to be done and i''m very good at it
Like roller coasters: some
Write in cursive or print: um it's a mix... actually i've created my own font. sometimes i can't even read it
Last talked to: brandi
Last thought of: how my eyes are startin to burn cause i'm gettin tired
Last showered: this afternoon
Last cut your nails: um it's benn awhile but they are still short
Last did laundry: one of the few perks of living at home... i don't have to do my own laundry
Last prayed: i don't really do that

For or against?..

Long distance relationships: against from personal experience... but my wasn't just because it was long distance, it was just a bad relationship in general. so if i ever had to give it another shot, i would
Killing people: an eye for an eye
Teenage smoking: i don't care one way or the other but it is pretty bad for you... especially weed
Driving drunk: against... i have an uncle i never met because of a drunk driver.
Gay/lesbian relationships: for... everyone needs love weither you a flaming homo or a ragin bull dike... or anywhere in between
Soap operas: now that's gay

have you?..

Ever been in a fist fight: um no... i've hit people and then they bled everywhere and obtained speech inpediments from it and they carried a grudge with them ever since the 9th grade and they went into the air force so they could kick my ass but got kicked out themselve because they are a pussy... but no, i've never exchanged punches with anyone. i'd love to just knock the shot outta the self claimed "eminem of the art world" just because he's a fuckin idiot and he's a fuckin idiot for callin himself that. i have just a little bit of anger built up inside... can you say bitter?
Ever been arrested: not yet
Ever had a friend die: yes
Ever used a gun: yep
Ever finished a puzzle: puzzles are kinda gay
Ever got surgery: very minor
Ever got beat up: not yet
Ever hated someone: just strongly disliked... like "if you went campin and got mauled by a bear and i could care less" kind of strong dislike
Ever made a huge mistake: sure ... and little ones too
Ever jogged a mile: i'm fat, so that's a no. but i have walked about 7 miles before when i was pissed off and walked all the way to matt's from my house
Ever played with someones feelings: no cause that's mean and that's how your gruling death becomes a plot line on CSI

What...

Shoes you wear: new balances mostly
Do you sleep in: usually just boxers... t-shirt is optional
What did you eat for lunch: a chicken philly with curly fries and some vegetable soup with a mt. dew to drink
# of accidents you been in: 3 or so

Do you think you are?..

Pretty: i must be
Funny: i laugh
Friendly: yep
Ugly: it's not healthy to think negatively about yourself
Lovable: very
Caring: most of the time
Cocky: don't confuse cocky with confidence
Girly: i would hope the hell not
Boyish: i would like to think so, yes
Smart: 2 + 2 = 4... YAY!!

Favorite?..

Candy: peanut nimer nims
Cereal: ceral is fucking nasty
Gum: that trident shit that's like orange and kiwi... i thought chad was gonna kiss me one time when i was chewing it. it's damn good. love you chaddy
Day of the week: umm... it doesn't really matter to me
Least fave day: umm... yeah same here
Jello flavor: green flavor
Summer or winter: fall or spring but fall really
Trampolines or swimming pools: swimming pools

Person who last?..

Slept in your bed: umm that would have been brandi and i but my bed has not be slept in since august or september or so or maybe even earlier
Saw you cry: everyone at my uncle's funeral
Made you cry: the death of my uncle
went to the movies with you: brandi and matt lastnight
Sent you an email: me madre

Have you ever?..

Gone out in public in your pajamas? i acutally have been outside in my boxers but yes, i have been outside in what would be considered pj's attire
Kept a secret from everyone? not really
Cried during a movie? yeah
Been on stage? yep
Been to New York? nope
Been to California? nope
Been to Florida? yes
China? maybe
Canada? no, eh
Europe? nope
What time is it now? 2:21 in the am
Apples or bananas? apples
Blue or red? green
Walmart or target? either really
Spring or fall? fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this? snuggle up next to brandi and go to sleep
What was the last meal you ate? chicken sandwich, curly fries and a mt. dew
Are you bored? i was... more like sleepy now
Last noise you heard? the noisey people who live in this building
Last smell you sniffed: brandi's smell when i kissed her goodnight
Last time you went out of state/province? that information is classified
Do you want children one day & if so, how many? 2 of my own
Most important thing to you in a friendship is? trust

Random stuff?..

Criminal record? not yet
Do you speak any other languages? nope but i'm actually interested in sign language. why? i have no fuckin clue since i don't know any people who are def and it's not like foreigners can understand it, but just think how cewel it would be to just start signin up a storm at some stranger when they ask you a question.
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom: i don't have a bedroom... i sleep on a couch and store my shit in the back room or my car
Piercings and where? 2 in my left ear, 1 in my right and 1 in my right brow
Worst feeling in the world? unloved

Your?..

Nickname(s): Luke Duke
Initials: CLN
How old do you look? i look my age or a little older... depends
How old do you act? i don't think i act like most 21 year olds because i don't do stupid shit but i don't act like an old prude
Glasses/contacts? eyeballs
Braces: teefases
Do you have any pets? nope not really
You get embarrassed? no... people try and it just doesn't work
What upsets you? i have to agree with sarah on this one....stupid people

a spark...

2006-01-17T03:35:25Z

i'd like to say that i follow through with what i start, but i just realized that i very rarely do. if it's super important, of course i do... but for the most part, i don't. i usually get bored with it or i let it beat me, by sayin i can't do it. that's just not me... well it is, but it's not who i wanna be. i wanna be known as someone who can keep up there end of the bargain. i especially do this when it comes to my art. i usually start something and not finish it. hell, i have a picture for chad that i started last christmas that became a birthday present that i still haven't finished a year later for his birthday a year later. but i've decided that it won't happen this time. i have my mind set on new ideas and i'm startin new projects and i will finish them, i will follow through with them.

i have the project that i'm workin on with chris, which i am very excited about because it's completely original idea. we can do whatever we want to with it. if anybody has any interest in seein what i'm talkin about, look to the left of this page in the box and click on the link that says ART. that will take to my art page and you can view what little i have done so far. basically just character designs and all. along with that, we(chad, chris and i.. that's all that i know of so far) are gonna try to come up with some kind of little copy or something of that sorts. i'm not really sure because we have only mentioned this and talked about it briefly. but chad was talkin about designin a web page and we could design a logo that would be featured on projects that we do. it would be really cewel. i have become very passionate about my art again and i feel that i can do this.

i've also become very passionate about something else, still relating to my comic project that i'm workin on. i was searchin on google and i stumbled across custom action figures. it's where people take bits and pieces of actions figures that they have layin around and build thier very on just the way they want them to look. i got to thinkin and i was like i could do that.i could take the characters that i've created for the comic and make custom action figures of them. i have tons of shit that i could mess around with. me and my brother just got finished rummagin through all his stuff to see what i could have and what i couldn't. so far i have quite a bit, but i don't know how much of it i'll actually be able to use when i break them all down and start reassemblin them how i see fit. if anybody has any donations they would like make to the "Lucas is 21 but he's still playin with action figures... but wait he's not really playin with them, he's CREATING with them" foundation, i would much appreciate it. i'll take perfectly fine figures or busted up ones, any type of modeling paints you may have. if anyone has any of that milliput or sculpey stuff they don't want anymore or any types of really strong glue, i'll take it. it would be nice to be able to make an action figure for each person that the character is based off of. but that only depends on how much materials i have. maybe if i'm able to atleast make one set, it can be displayed if/when we are ever anywhere to show off our projects or on the web page if it gets built. if anyone is interested in seein more of what i'm talkin about, check out this website: http://www.jinsaotomesdangeroustoys.com/.
this guy has some super cewel custom figures and he actually takes the time to make out guides on how to make your own custom figure.

i'm just really excited about all this and i will finish what i start this time.

luk3duk3 @ 2006-01-09T19:46:00

2006-01-10T01:20:28Z

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Sins

2006-01-06T04:58:17Z

i'm workin on a solo story while i'm waitin for my chris to finish up the writin for the story we are workin on together. my story is still based on the same characters from the other project but i'm just takin one and kinda doin an orgin story. these characters are the nemisises of Daddy Danger. he killed the father Richard Sinercha and they(Vinny, Joey and Tony Sinercha... his sons who lke to call themselves the Sins) killed him... whole 'nother story to that. anyway, here are designs for the masks that they wear... The Devil, The Goblin and The Dragon. i may do a little work on the goblin mask but so far i like the others.

sorry to any Italian's readin but they are part of a mobster family. Richard Sinercha is a crime boss and his sons are a part of his enforcers. there is a story to be told in there but i haven't come up with it yet. anyway, like i said, papa Sinercha got wacked by Danger and the Sins brothers killed him. yes, Danger is alive in the other story but you'll have to read it when it's finished. basically the story i'm workin on follows Danger, after his come back, huntin down the Sinercha boys. wanna know more? gotta wait til i write it.

luk3duk3 @ 2005-12-29T02:09:00

2005-12-29T07:20:37Z

10 Firsts:
- first best friend: chad
- first screename: G0REALLAH
- first kiss: shit i don't remember
- first pet: a cat named lance
- first piercing: left ear
- first crush: this black girl in kindergarden... her name was cierra
- first music: ??? i don't remember
- first car: 88 ford mustang
- first love: brandi
- first date: my actual first date was with brandi

9 Lasts:
- last cigarette: never really smoked cigarettes.. but i stopped smokin cigars over the summer
- last alchoholic drink: had a toast on christmas eve but i don't drink anyway
- last car ride: yesterday
- last real kiss: day after christmas when i saw brandi
- last movie seen: at home- Mr. & Mrs. Smith; in theaters- Wolf Creek
- last phone call: matt
- last CD played: Fort Minor: the rising tide
- last bubble bath: i don't think i've ever takin a bubble bath
- last time you cried: uh... don't remember

8 Have You Evers:
- have you ever been arrested: not yet
- have you ever dated one your best friends: yeah... big mistake
- have you ever skinny dipped: pretty much
- have you ever been on TV: yep
- have you ever kissed someone & then regretted it: yep
- have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew?: don't remember
- have you ever snuck out: not outta my house
- have you ever been in a fight: yes

7 Things You're Wearing:
- dukes of hazzard t-shirt
- boxers
- blue sweat pants
- brown flops
- necklace on my left wrist
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6 Things You've Done Today:
- woke up
- ate breakfast
- paced around the house
- talked to brandi
- ordered a pizza
- watched a movie

5 Favorite Things In No Particular Order:
- brandi
- friends
- food
- love
- art

4 Friends You Can Tell Anything to.
- matt
- chad
- of course brandi
-

3 Choices:
-black or white: black
-hot or cold: cold
-chocolate or vanilla: niller

2 Things You Want to Do Before You Die:
- have a family and make the woman i love happy
- to be able to do absolutely nothing but wanna do positively everything

1 thing you regret:
- this survey... boredom's a bitch

high road

2005-12-27T08:39:56Z

Christmas has come and gone and it was alright. i was sittin in my kitchen drawin, tryin to get some sketches for the project Chris and i are workin on done. i went out with Brandi and her mother earlier today and i purchased the Fort Minor CD that is basically Mike Shinoda's(from Linkin Park)solo album. as i sat there drawin and listenin, it reminded me very much of why i wanted to get into music at one point of my life and why i wanted to get into the comic buisness at one point of my life. there is one song on there called "High Road". as i listened, it reminded of all the people who doubted me and still do. yeah, i may never get into music and i may never draw one page in a comic but i've already beaten you.when you dissed me and told me i was shit, i never once doubted you... i just aimed to prove you wrong and i have. it's called the high road... try walkin it sometime.

"High Road"- Fort Minor Ft. John Legend

These people are running off at the mouth
Tryin to convince me that I'm running on empty
Tryin to convince themselves that the record with Jay was a fluke
That the record that I'm makin is a mistake
and I cant take this
Lemme tell you where I'm at with this
You bastards are gonna have to take back that shit
I'm not plastic and fake
When I make tracks I take facts and lay them out for the masses
You assholes are gonna see soon that I'm not playin
Start askin me the names that I'm not sayin
But I'm tryin to be bigger than the bickerin
bigger than the petty name callin
under the breath talkin
rumors and labels and categorization
I'm like a struggling doctor, No patients
But you can say what you want about me
keep talkin while I'm walkin away

You can say what you have to say
cuz my mind's made up anyway
I'm taking the high road going above you
this is the last time that I'm gonna trust you
You can say what you have to say
cuz my mind's made up anyway
all that bullshit you talk might work a lot
but it's not gonna work today

You people are running off at the mouth
Tryin to make me take myself off safety
Tryin to make my friends turn their backs on the team we built
buildin up some mistaken information
and I cant take this
lemme spell it out plain for you
angry groups complain about the things we do
im not changing direction, I'm stepping my game up
Maintainin my name, the same way I came up
You're gonna see that I'm not playin
start asking the names that I'm not sayin
but im tryin not to mention the names of people who wanna sight and attention
You like the hype but pretendin you're part of the picture wont pass
You're like a high school dropout, no class
You can say what you want about me
keep talkin while i'm walkin away bitch

You can say what you have to say
cuz my mind's made up anyway
I'm taking the high road going above you
this is the last time that I'm gonna trust you
You can say what you have to say
cuz my mind's made up anyway
all that bullshit you talk might work a lot
but it's not gonna work today

Why does it always have to be
Somebody's always watching me
All I really need is some room to breathe
Is anybody out there listening?
Cuz I cant stand to keep this in
All I really want, I'll say it again

You can say what you have to say
cuz my mind's made up anyway
I'm taking the high road going above you
this is the last time that I'm gonna trust you
You can say what you have to say
cuz my mind's made up anyway
all that bullshit you talk might work a lot
but it's not gonna work today

You bring your friends and I'll bring mine...Rag~Tag

2005-12-21T07:32:29Z

just a little project that Chris and i have goin on. we hope to have something done in time for the Heroes convention next year. here is just a quick glimpse of a few characters. tell me what you think.

Daddy Danger

HotSpot

The Piper

Jet

Bones, Red Thorn & Brute(work in Progress)

HotSpot & Daddy Danger

killin time

2005-11-29T03:31:35Z

1. ONE WISH:
to be happy
2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?:
i'll fight for love
3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?:
none of anyone's buisness
4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?:
pretty much... i built all kinds of shit
5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV?:
most are crap
6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?:
every now and then
7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?:
i was a damn sexy baby
8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?:
nope... i have a girl who color inside my world
9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?:
umm... off white
10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?:
every now and then but i mostly am quite and thinkin while i'm in there
11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?:
hell no
12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?:
i'm sure i do
13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?:
anywhere that i can relax to the fullest
14. IS ADAM SANDLER FUNNY?:
you bet
15. CAN YOU SWIM?:
nope
16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?:
nope
17. DO YOU GIVE A *BEEP* ABOUT THE OZONE?:
well yeah... i live on this planet so i should
18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP?:
well according to the owl on the commercial, it took 3 but he bit it instead of lickin it. i once tested this and it was like 200 something before it even started to look different so i just stuck the damn thing in my mouth. they are called suckers not lickers.
19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?:
i'm sure i could
20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?:
nope
23. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
nope
22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS?:
either or... i'm not so lazy i can't turn the damn handle
23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?:
behind the gun
24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?:
yep
25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?:
sorta... i kinda write like a doctor
26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?:
stupidity and bullshit... oh and some citrus acids
27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "HELLO"?:
i usually say "hey"
28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE?:
maybe
29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?:
no... i've been to one
30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?:
boiled, poched, or scrambled
31. ARE BLONDES DUMB?:
for the most part... they seem to lack the common sense gene
32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?:
i think the dryer monster eats them
33. WHAT TIME IS IT?:
10:24pm
34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?:
Luke... brandi calls me Luke Duke sometimes
35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?
for the most part
36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?:
about an hour or so ago
37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?:
showers
38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL?:
yes and i will fight anyone who says otherwise
39. DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED?:
sure
40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?:
depends on how dark it is
41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?:
i don't believe in addiction for the most part
42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?:
eitehr or
43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?:
i don't want to die
44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?:
yes... not as fun as you would think
45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH today:
once very good
46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?:
always
47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?:
sometimes
48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?:
green
50. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HAIR?:
brown
51. LIQUOR OR BEER?
neither
52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC?:
all fat people are
53. HAVE YOU READ "THE CATCHER IN THE RYE"?
ready is for pussys... teehee
54. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?:
nope
55. HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN FROM A FRIEND?:
nope
56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD?:
sure
57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?:
yep
58. DO YOU SNORT WHEN YOU LAUGH?:
nope
59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?:
only if it's someone wearin big red shoes
60. ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?:
no
61. DO YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?:
sure
62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?:
haven't been to space yet
63. DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES?:
not really.. not anymore
64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY?:
not really
65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?:
chinese food at the mall
66. DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH?:
only on the weekends
67. WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING COMMERCIAL?:
i don't pay that much attention to the tv
68. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?:
uh no
69. DO YOU SNORE?:
i coo like a dove
70. FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?
i don't have one at the moment

read my long ass entry...

2005-11-10T20:03:18Z

LAST WEEK: well the first thing i can remember from last week was goin to carolina place mall and gettin brandi's birthday present. her birthday was this past monday(the 7th) so you know, i needed to get her something. i had a good chunk of money in my wallet from babysittin on halloween... yes, call me mr. nanny... and a good chunk of money, to me, is less than $100 cause, you know, i'm poor and all. well i kept askin her what she wanted and she said "i don't know" or "nothing". i knew that was bull and even if she was serious about gettin her nothing, i just can't not do that. well i could only think of one thing that she had been wantin for awhile but i kept tryin to think of other things instead of that. like maybe a book she had been wanting cause she loves to read or something to that effect but nope, nothing she wanted. i kept tryin to think and think but nothing was comin to me so i finally just broke down and went with my first idea. yes, my friends... i not only went into the "Build-a-Bear workshop" but i actually made one. brandi is crazy about giraffes for some reason and they recently came out with a giraffe build-a-thingy. and even though this really doesn't matter cause it's the love that went into it that counts, it was also the most expensive one. well i went in there thinkin i'd just tell them which one i wanted and then they'd just throw it together for me. NOOOOO... i had to make the damn thing. i had to step on the peddle to pump the stuffing in there. when that was done it was time for the heart. they have these little clothe hearts you have to put inside the stuffed animals. i couldn't just put it in there... NOOOO, i had to do everything the kids do, from rubbing the heart on my arms to make it nice and strong to jumping up and down to give it a good heart beat. totally freakin gay... but i love brandi and i would do it a thousand times again if it meant seeing the look on her face when i gave it to her. well i picked out this little safari outfit for it, made a birth certificate for it, paid for it and proceeded to leave. not only did i have to carry the queer little box around that is their "homes" but i had to carry one that had a giraffe's head stickin out of it wearin a safari hat cause it didn't fit in the box all the way. but it was all worth it when i gave it to her. and from all that, JORGE was born... no, not george spelled funny, it's Hor-hey. brandi absolutely loves him and i do have to say that i've snuggled up with him a few times after she leaves for class. well anyway...

THIS WEEKEND: i went home with brandi this weekend to Bamburg. it was good again to see her mom and i got to meet her grandmother and a close friend of the family. pretty much we spent all of saturday helpin brandi's mom rearrange the furniture again. i didn't mind. i actually felt more comfortable this time. when brandi went to take a shower later that night, me and her mom just talked and it just felt like we clicked and connected really good. and that means alot to me cause her mom is her world. it was a pretty good weekend over all.

MONDAY: well like i said, monday was her birthday and the gang rolled in to celebrate with her. chad, josh, and chris came down which was good cause i hadn't seen them in awhile. matt came down as well and brandi's friend jessica from band hung out with us as well. we all chilled in the kitchen area upstairs in her dorm. they watched football and played cards while i cooked brandi her b-day dinner. afterwords we just chilled. it was good to do that again with just about everybody. which brings me to now...

NOW: i actually started this entry last night but i just lost my interest in finishing it so i saved and decided to finish it now. i miss hangin out with everybody as a whole. matt m., laura, bobbo... i miss them. go and read brandi's last entry. it talks about all the shit we use to as kids. the thing is though, i can remember still doin all this shit to date. call me immature or a kid but that's the shit we all did. maybe not run out side and play red rover or anything but we had fun when we hungout. wal-mart tag with everybody and bobbo fartin so loud he gave away our position. me and matt ridin his little cousins' bikes that were way to small for us around his neighborhood being stupid. chad comin over and us havin art time and just philosophizing life. matt and me basically livin over at laura's house that one summer. goin to matt m.'s dorm almost everyday and playin HALO. that shit was fun. i just wanna get together and have fun again. i'm not sayin what we do isn't fun but it's not that raw level of fun we use to know. i know that we are all either in our adulthood or about to enter it but come on... if that means given up that innocence we had as kid, sign me up for that ship to neverland cause i don't wanna grow up.

LATER: i'm not sure really. friday night, i might be babysittin and hangout with brandi. saturday is my day alone with brandi. sunday, i know i'm goin shootin with matt and a guy he works with up in the uwarie mountains. it should prove to be an all day thing. after that, who knows... maybe a game of hide-and-seek...

luk3duk3 @ 2005-11-07T18:28:00

2005-11-07T23:31:03Z

i will bw updatin this thingamabob very soon... later tonight maybe after all the festivities? who knows

halloweiner... ha ha ha

2005-11-01T05:05:26Z

so it's halloween and i'm sittin here doin absolutely nothin. actually, i'm babysitting and keepin an eye on all the cars outside while watchin "Jason X" on the sci-fi channel. so pretty much nothing like i said. i can't complain though cause i'm gettin paid for doin both. i had all my fun this weekend. thursday i went to a halloween party with brandi at winthrop. she went as fairy princess and i went as my version of the green arrow. it was pretty boring but all that mattered was that i was with her. unfortunately, my weekend wasn't all fun and games. my uncle passed away last week. he was like a father to me. i'm not goin to get into details cause it still hurts to think about it and talk about it and it will for a very long time. i loved my uncle with all my heart and he gave me everything he could. friday was his funeral service. friday night, i needed to get away so i went with brandi back to her place and matt came over and we just chilled and watched "Iron Chef" with her room mates. the special ingredient was broccoli. it was funny. well matt ended up crashin on the couch and saturday mornin, we went to the Renaissance festival. it was the first time brandi had been. we saw the london broil show, belly dancing, the joust and the tortuga twins show. it was pretty fun but extremely expensive. that night went swung by jack-in-the-box to feed our hunger and then blockbuster for some entertainment. we were tryin to find "Saw" cause brandi hasn't seen it and she wants to see "Saw 2" but she wants to see the first one first. so of course they didn't have it in. we ended up rentin "Dawn of the dead" cause matt nor brandi had seen it. we took it back and watched it while her roommates where in and out of the room watchin it. they are pretty decent chicks. they except brandi and don't seem to mind me bein over there so much. they are fun to have around, but don't compare to my sweetheart. so i had a pretty good weekend and can't complain too much. carved a punkin earlier today while watchin "Blade 2" to get into the halloween spirit. but now it's time to goin back to bein bored. catch ya'll fuckers on the flip side, yo.

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time after time...

2005-10-21T02:00:07Z

i haven't updated alot lately about things that have been goin on in my life. usually i have just been postin pictures of my artwork. but i don't have anymore artwork to post right now. so i thought i would post something else. life since i moved back home hasn't been easy. i've had trouble sleeping... infact, up until recently, i could only sleep when i was with brandi... and i still sleep better when i'm with her. jobs are scarce on this side of town. the ones that there are, there are just as many that aren't safe to work at. there have been alot of break-in's in my nieghborhood as well. armed criminals just kickin people's front doors in and robbin them... something else that doesn't help you sleep at night when you sleep on the couch. i just don't want to be here... i don't want my family to be here. but when i'm not here, shit happens. last saturday, the pitbull of the dipshit that lives next door to us, got loose and killed our cat archer. i loved archer to death... he had more personality then some people i've met. anyway, the dog just crushed him to death. my dad did manage to shoot the dog twice in the neck with the pistol but the firing pin broke after the second shot. he went to get the shotgun, but the guy had already gotten his dog who didn't seemed phased a bit by the bullet holes in his neck. we've had trouble with the asshole before but this was just the end. i'm not sure what my parents did, but my dad told me today that the dumbshit got 6-8 years in prison. i know it's not about the cat, it's about all the other shit he has done, but it kinda sets me at ease to know he won't be here. but then you just have to worry about what trash is goin to move in there next. as for why i wasn't here saturday, i was off camping. matt, brandi and i went up to morrow mt. on friday to camp for my birthday weekend. it's something that i usually like to do. the only bad thing about that weekend was that i was sick and couldn't do much. but for what it was worth, i still had fun. we actually took a trip the uwarie mts. which is on the other side of morrow mt. to find a shooting range. matt brought his AK-47 and a WW2 german rifle he has. i have one just like it, except mine is the italian version. anyway, we went and shot those for a while. brandi shot the AK-47 and she did really good. i have to admit it was fun as hell to shoot it. when we got home, i spent the rest of my vacation with brandi. we had fun with it just bein me and her at her apartment for 2 days. we went to the fair that was across the street from the school. typical carnival folk but it was fun none the less and would have been better with a little group of people. of course tuesday was my birthday and we came over here for dinner after spendin most of the day together. i got a couple of things and loved everything i got. kinda weird to say but yeah, i'm now 21. yesterday, i hungout with chad a little durin the day and then later i hungout with matt. we were bored and went to carolina place mall but made our way down to rockhill and surprised brandi at work. we hungout with her and her roommates for a little while and then i tucked her into bed and matt and i left. today i have been so tired that i have basically slept all day. i just haven't been able to focus on much without fallin asleep. it's been weird. my main focus as of late though is findin a job. i need the money. i need to be with brandi.

art...

2005-10-10T02:11:44Z

here are two more pictures that i have done for my prints that i want to have for the comic con next year... actually, it's mostly just the hellboy piece. the spiderman piece was really just for fun. if i was goin to do a piece with spidey, i would have him wearin one of his more recognizable costumes, not one that i made up. still, let me know what you think and if you have any characters you'd like to see.

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